“Blooming in Adversity”

“the flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all.” -Mulan

The Disney movie of my childhood always resonated in a way that I couldn’t put into words in the past. Something about a girl, deemed unworthy and disgraceful to her family and culture, hit home in a profound way. Mulan took on a disguise, surrounding herself with men and a trying environment in order to protect the ones she loved most. When the real challenge presented itself, her mask faded and she had to step into her true power of the woman she was and the skills she had obtained in order to lead the country out of turmoil. Once the threat was defeated, the emperor shared this quote painting a picture of Mulan’s nature.

This movie was a staple to me as a young girl because I was surrounded by adversity. At every turn, every mirror, every room in the house, she was confronted with it. She felt like a disappointment to all those around her, but primarily to herself. As time progressed, she learned of her inner strength. She chose challenges in her life to continue to grow and become more of the woman she knew she could be. She sought out mentors, solitude, education, and physicality. Each one sharpening the iron within her to enhance what childhood had instilled.

Today, I sit with the little girl who felt so alone. I stand beside the teen who challenged herself and charged up on her power. I link arms with these versions of myself knowing that they are what has made me who I am.

On a daily basis, I have to remind myself of how far I’ve come. I look in the mirror and still struggle to see how my body has changed. I contemplate in silence wondering if I bring anyone honor. I question all the lessons and the triumphs and the pain frequently, alone and independently. The adversity does not disappear, it merely changes forms. As time progresses though, it becomes easier due to the record of history that dictates what I am capable of, how I love, and the rare beauty that continues to bloom along the way.